i m so **** up with my life...
actually ....y we as a human always hv so many prob?i noe..the prob i m having hs just some minor prob which is so little...but...i cant stand it...
when bad thing come after you..then it will keep on coming without stop...THEY WONT STOP~!!! like wat chinese always said...sui san wan siong nei...damn --- up man...y? y mus he? y not choi san? he nvr look for me b4....y? y not yuet lou...he nvr help me b4...
js like today...i get two bad news which make me damn sad..
1st...my fren tell me that final result came out edi....so i m so happy...n so willing n curious to c it...wheni try to log in in my frens hs...i cant get the correct password....tat time my hand was shaking edi...finally....i get the correct password after keep on tryig,...hoho...happy man...may b cz of i m too confident...like wat they always say...kei mong yut dai, sat mong yut dai...when i look at the result...---~!i get oni one a...other all b...omg...shit man....i was so blank that moment...i was like dono wat to do n wat to say....cz i always though tat my context of architecture and servicces can get A...but then both of them is oni b....omg...the exam was so easy...but then i cant get...ya..i noe...i noe that i don really put much efford in it...n nvr study hard...but then the COA?? ya right...i do it in the last week...but not last second....i really put lots of effort into it....y he can get a i cant?cz he hv more page?ok...dom compare with other...but then i hv all the information u wan...n lots of extra also....but then js tat my letter is smaller then other...tat y i hv less page...but then is that the main reason i get a B?u r js sceamiing while u r correcting...but then do u really read wat i wrote?did u?then tell me wat is the reason i get a B?and she get a B oso?i mean is like...she is ...haih....i noe...i sud not compare with other...but then i js cant stop doing it....OMG....my future is depend on the sert u noe...haih.....
actually...after this i m still ok...cz....i can study harder in the nex sem...but then ...i always said it...n nvr work for it...
the wost thing happen after i accompany my fren go to snaps some photo in kl...i was so sleepy that time...cz...i slp few hours the day before...so i try to lie in his car n try to sleep...then suddenly he tell a news...bout a girl i like..he said that..there is a guy going after her...guess who?is her ex...i always know that she still like her ex....by the time he tel me that...i was still like nothing...n tell my fren..haha, that was his right to go bac for her...if he can get her..tat mean he is good...i know that i m not gog in going after a girl...so...i was nothing lo..cz i think she still like him...so...i continue to slp...then ...few second later...i cant slp...i was so blank...then i sit up straight...and ask my fren...u serious with wat u told me js now?then he laugh and said i though u was nothing...then i laugh...i though i was nothing also...but then...i m not....there are so many pictures appear in my mind...all the pic is between she and her ex...is like picture they hold hand together...kiss each other...i don't know y i will think of that...then...tat time i felt i wanna drop out my tears...ya...i know..i know that boys don't drop out ttears....but then is like...haih...i oso dono how to discribe...but then i hold it...cz my fren is js beside me...hoho...
but....she like him...n he like she...so wat els can i do?there is something i can do...which is wishing them all the best...seriously...i was thinking that...if she is happy...then that the best thing edi rite?haha...it sound ga...but theni really think like that..cz...her ex is really a nice guy..he is handsome, smart, cute, rich, funny, good in style, drive nice car, hommour...that y alot girls admire him...haha...lost to him...i felt happy oso lar..but then if i can get her...of cz i will b more happy lar...actually is not happy...js tat i shu dou sam fuk hao fuk....
haha...actually ...is my life tat bad?think of it...hoho..not that bad oso mar...rite?i dono...but then today is the worst day i had before...and till today...i oni sure that i really like her...yes...i do...i do...and i hope that u will happy always...muaks...hoho... |